Answering Questions #3

Should I come out as a Satanist?

I’ve no idea why you would. A Satanist is an independent person.

I’ve never “come out” as anything in my life barring being gay, and I only did that when I was caught up in the LGBT circlejerk crowd. I regret it, and short of me being with a partner, I will never bring it up. Just like being a Satanist. There’s little payoff to being open about it, and a whole lot of cost in most cases.

Answering Questions #2

Why are you a Satanist? And are you a theistic one or atheistic one?

Satan is a very real being to me.

When I finally made contact with Satan after a long time of trying and chickening out, He was the only being Whom I felt completely seen by and utterly not judged by. I felt complete acceptance while looking into this huge beast’s glowing red eyes. He knew everything about me, and thought that it was good. I knew it in my soul.

That was the first time I’d ever been given unconditional love. After that, there was no going back. Nothing will ever compare.

This captures the feeling pretty well. You can maybe feel what I mean at 1:03 onward, though the whole video is important.

Answering Questions #1

Maybe I ought to make a FAQ after I get some more questions. I did have several from my Hades blog (I’ve been missing it lately). I could do those.

Somebody asked me why I have so many anime pictures on a blog about spirituality.

Well, the short answer is that Kuroshitsuji (黒執事) Black Butler is something I ran into a long time ago, and only more recently got into again. We’re talking ten years here, and it definitely loosened me up to the idea of Satanism as a religious path. The contract between Sebastian and Ciel reminds me of my relationship with Satan, and this gives me the warm fuzzies. I’m also a long-time Japanophile and have been learning the language. Call me a “weeb,” and I’ll cut you. Seriously.

Do not get me started on “fandom.” You have not met me when I am with my Dragonball or my Skyrim. I could write volumes on what Skyrim, alone, did for my understanding of paganism.

As to the Yuri!!! On Ice (ユーリ!!! on ICE), well, I have adored figure skating since I used to watch it with my mom. The fact they’re gay is pretty important, too. It can be credited with helping me to finally accept my own sexuality. Satanism shares some credit, as well, but that would be the long story.

My posts on Satanism are in draft form as I make some adjustments. I have a third one in progress, but need to get those organised in order to write it out. I’m thinking of titling the series differently as what they were before doesn’t fit.

I did get a good amount of views on them, and that’s important to me, so I will keep them.

An Overdue Queer Wiccan Mythology


This is but a small glimpse into the God and Goddess of Wicca. I share this in the hope others like me will find it when it is time. We have our own stories. It’s time we share them without shame.

Mine are good enough.

Yours are good enough.

We are good enough.

You are good enough.

That is all.

I have heard it said that the Earth is Goddess and Queen, Provider of all things for those She cradles. In the day, there is the Ocean, a liquid Thing, and by night, His Lover, the Moon. The Sun and Earth are Father and Mother, and They love all of Their Children. 

I have heard tell of two Kings, of Oak and of Holly, Who, Beloved and Lover, dance a sacred dance of love and lust and enchantment throughout the seasons. The other creatures see Their love and are encouraged to grow, and find hope in trying times.

I have heard whispers of a Pair of Majestic Stags, One a pure, glorious white, the Other a soft, quiet brown. They meet in the Winter as Fawns, and grow in Their adoration and love of One Another as the seasons progress. One is a Reindeer, bright as the newly fallen snow, One is a White-tailed Deer, Who, for a brief time is covered in soft white spots as His Own youthful radiance shines through. In the Spring, They assist in the birthing and raising of fawns, in Summer, in the finding of food, and in Autumn, in the protection of the Tribe.

– By Lavan Volkov (Tarvok)